The Secret To my confidence - ft. Olga Intimates
How many times have you actually looked at yourself naked?
Not in a sexual way, or with the company of another.
Not in a judgmental, let’s fix this and that kind of way.
With all those factors taken into consideration…how many times have you looked at yourself in the mirror naked?
The way I speak about, is the way in which you stand in front of the mirror, a nervous stance…almost as if you are introducing yourself to yourself. A glance of a handshake, a head nod to acknowledge who presents itself to yourself.
I never looked at myself that bare, until I was 27. For a very long time, the mirror was a false sense of cultural reality. It served as proof of the mental images of myself that the ones who needed to learn to love me, superimposed on me.
Then in one of those cliché life moments, I read something that said that you had to learn to love your bare self, to learn to love your true self.
The first time I looked in the mirror naked, I battled with re-constructive thoughts. But in the truth of it all, I was introducing myself to myself, the way as a temporary way of which I hoped to see myself.
It wasn’t easy…but every morning, I would stop in front of the mirror…stark naked and talk to myself. Saying things of affirmation that went beyond the surface, and in that motion I began to teach myself to see myself.
I would stand in the mirror, false perceived imperfection and tell myself things like.
“You kicked ass at work yesterday”
“You learned some really great things from the article you read yesterday”
“That conversation you had yesterday proved how effin smart you really are”
“The painting you made that hangs in the hallway is actually quite amazing”
Gosh what a change it made. I felt like I had made a new friend, who I could talk to about anything.”
I learned to start to see myself not for my outward beauty, but for the inward beauty that I myself wished others would have the patience to experience. Gosh, how was I hoping for others to see the inside, smart ass, sassy but intelligent me…when I never even knew who that was.”